Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Ok, the plan is....

Passion - Webster's defines passion as a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept. I have been thinking a lot about this lately. What drives people to do, what they do? Michael Jordan's passion was basketball. He became the best basketball player he could be and eventually became a basketball icon. Tiger Woods has a passion for golf, Wayne Gretsky had a passion for hockey, Dale Earnheardt has a passion for racing, and so on and so on. These are all sports figures who loved what they did so much, they made a career and a life out of their passion.
I have many people who are close to me who you just know what their passion is. Steph, my wife has an unending passion to teach. Not a skill that I posses or desire, but one that she has worked very hard to achieve and is almost to the point of reaching her goal. She will be living her passion as a teacher very soon. Other close friends of mine have a passion for music. One continues to practice daily to achieve perfection. The other works every day to take his passion outside. He works to perfect his passion by performing with others, not practicing at home. Both of these are working toward their passion, just in different ways.
So, what is my passion? Someone told me recently I am tring so hard to find where I fit in, I am like a fish out of the ocean. I wanted to work with youth at church. Now I am doing it and I feel like I dont fit in. I wanted a new job in property management because I thought I was good at managing. I wanted to play in a praise aband but never took lessons. Truth is, yes I wanted to do all of these things but they have all since passed. I am stil trying to fit in with the youth, but that will take time. I am still trying to learn the piano but I can think of every excuse in the book not to play. I looked for another job, but didnt find one immediately so I stopped looking. That person made me see that these are not my passion, these are just things I want to do. That person, my wife, made me see the forrest in the middle of all of those trees.
I love working with computers. I love doing web sites. I do both of those now for the pure enjoyment of doing them. Drawing was once something that I liked doing for the enjoyment of doing it also. Everything that I drew had cars, trucks, motorcycles, everything with wheels. Blake has this in him also. I love it when he comes up to me and shows me a new picture he has drawn.
So I went to college to learn to do CAD (computer aided drafting) and suddenly my hobby, became my life. It became my career. That job led into another area, design. I loved designing HVAC systems. They became like a creation out of my head. That job led into project management. Now, I not only designed the system, I got to see it from the creation to completion to operation. One of the biggest thrills that I got was going to the first job that I designed from the beginning and seeing it in place. I looked up at the ductwork and it was EXACTLY where I wanted it. It was the right size, right materials in the right location. It was PERFECT and I told someone to put it right there. I had such an overwhelming sense of achievement that can never be expressed in this journal using mortal words. It was incredible.
I think that is how God is. He created us from the point of conception, to creation, to operation, and finally to completion. Imagine, God, when we were first thought of, planning our entire lives from beginning to end. He knew what each of us would do every minute of every day. He knows when we hurt and He provides for us in need. I imagine He was with each of us, like I was in that building that day. He had created a life from the images in His mind and now, it had the right number of fingers, right number of toes, and right color of hair that He planned for each of us.
He also had a plan for us. We may not know what it was until we get to heaven, but each of us has a plan, a passion. My passion is computers. My job today lets me work with computers every day. I design websites, I get to do some CAD drawings but now I have moved on to more web based design and I am so blessed to be able to have a life doing what I enjoy doing. Its not the most perfect job, but its the one God has given me for now

Dear God, thank You for creating me. You made me with 10 fingers, 10 toes, and exactly the way you had planned on me being. Thank You for my life. You have given me a soulmate who keeps me seeing the forrest when all I see is trees. You have a plan for me. Help me work every day to pursue that plan and to use the passion that you have given me to work toward the goals that you have for me.